Dear Diary, I am Fat...Now What?: Day 13

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Day 13 - It's All About Control

As I made my way through my routine(s) this morning, I couldn't help but think about control.

The lyrics to an old Janet Jackson song kept playing in my head...

Control
(Never going to stop)
Control
(To get what I want)

some old school Janet for ya...

...and I knew, as I hummed my way downstairs and toward the scale, that this past week has been all about me NOT having control.

Control of what I say but MORE SO control of what I do.

I still have 2 whole days before marking the end of week 2 and I have been completely out of control this week.

Looking back on it, I realize that for most, it might not seem SO bad...a slip up here, not weighing this there (on the food scale), etc., etc.

But for me (and with my track record) I know this has been, in the past, the beginning of the end.

Another fail.

Cheesits, People. We are ONLY (not even) 2 weeks IN.

I've got to get my C R A P together.

This was made ever more evident as I clicked my daily weigh in pic.

I had gained. Again.

293.4 this morning.

Now, LOGICALLY speaking, I am still 13 pounds down total. GREAT number, right?

Of course.

However, I know me. And I know my head (crazy 'ol noggin THAT is). I teetered this week and I need to put the brakes on the bus RIGHT freakin' now.

Because I will not go back down the path of least resistance. I will continue to step outside my comfort zone and I AM getting healthy.

Control
(Now I've got a lot)
Control
(To get what I want)

I know there are a plethora of things I cannot control.

I also know that my life, my actions, my head and heart, my body...I control.

I'm in control - Day 13 - Let the games begin...

Till next time!

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