Day 38 - I Refuse to DIE-t!

Today is Thursday, August 23rd, and I want to talk about the word DIET.

It's probably one of the ugliest words in the dictionary. For me, anyway...and maybe you too, if you are working toward a healthier you.

You can't diet.

You can't go ON a diet.

You can't BE dieting.

Not if you want to get healthy.

Any serious, life-changing-soon to be former fat girl (or guy) KNOWS this.

DIETing sounds just awful. Like going on a trip to H E double hockey sticks.

I don't WANT to go there.

I don't WANT to go on a diet and deprive myself of all the goodies I used to eat. Because when I come BACK from that diet, I'm going to EAT all those goodies I couldn't while on my diet - gaining back all that weight and more; come on, you've been THERE.

Besides...

...wait for it...

Who wants to do ANYthing that has the word DIE in it?

There, I said it.

So, here's my advice:

Don't go on a diet.

Don't deprive yourself of things you like to eat but ON THE OTHER HAND (I seem to be yelling a lot today...) don't be stupid about what you're eating, either.

You can't control your portions (1 cookie instead of 6) and drink your liquids (water instead of soda and juice) and exercise...which APPARENTLY 2 CRAZY hours at the beach and more than 1500 calories burned is NOT...

Ugh.

I'm totally off topic and completely distracted this morning.

The bottom line is that you are NOT dieting. You are life-changing. You can't DO this without making changes.

And you can't change your life without making good choices.

Here, yesterday, is where I failed.

I made excellent choices for breakfast and lunch. Then Mags and I hit the beach (actually ate our yummy salads AT the beach) where we played and jumped and dove in the waves for a solid 2 hours.

I had promised her an ice cream treat on the way home. I treated myself too but didn't go CRA-CRA; so, feelin' good and still WAY under calories for the day.

But then...

duh duh DUH (scary movie music...)

I had a whole can of chicken corn chowder (Chunky's) and a (small, you know...the cute little ones) bagel with cream cheese - one of my all time favorite meals, believe it or not. AND...rather than donate the old cans in the cupboard (like G SAID to do, I thought I'd help us out by eating...)

Major DUMB.

I took ALL that good work and destroyed it.

(...it's what I get for not wanting to load up on groceries before the move...WHICH is just a stupid excuse because I COULD just buy a few healthy things to get us to next week...)

I was still way under cals but it was the WRONG food. And the scale proved it. (PS: my scale knows my 285 fear, too.)

So ya see?

You can't deprive yourself of treats. But you have to make smart decisions about when, how much, and WHY...oh, WHY is so very important. We'll talk about that in another post.

Okay, so THIS post is a bit all of over the place, isn't it?

Well, I've got a kid who's excited about seeing her Auntie today (or that her Auntie has a pool, probably, lol) and then there's me...

Going insane with all that has to be done before next Tuesday and losing my mind (it's totally different from going insane, you know) over how it's all going to play out.

Here's where G usually says: No worries, baby, we'll work it out, we always do.

Ugh. Can't help but love him, because he's right.

Till next time!

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August 100 Miles Challenge Update: 

Sandi: 53.79 miles

Anna:  39.5 miles

Kathy: 81.99 miles

Steffie: 58.05 miles 

Bernie: 4.3 miles

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Remember, if you want me to track your miles for August, just shoot me a note and I will add you to the blog. If you are here already and I've got your numbers wrong, just shoot me...no, no, just let me know and I'll change it. I'm good with that. Cheers!

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Starting Weight: 306.4

Goal Weight: 150

Today's Weight: 287.6

Total Lost to Date: 18.8

Stupid Scale is FREAKIN' GLOWING Today...UGH!

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I am a work in progress, always. Sometimes I stumble, but I always get back up. The hard part is knowing which direction to turn. If I go THAT way, I know I will fail. This time, I'm going THIS way. It's a new direction for me and I will NOT fail. Cheers!

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Day 37 - Thank You for Rejecting THIS Biggest Loser!

I don't know if rejection is the right word here.

I didn't get chosen, I wasn't picked, I didn't win.

But did they reject me?

And WHO are THEY, anyway?

The Biggest Loser Season 14 Casting Crew. That's who.

Didn't choose or pick me. Just down-right rejected me.

To them I say:

Thank You!

Seriously.

I haven't talked much (here) about my whole experience with trying out for Season 14 of the Biggest Loser. In all honesty, it was such a surreal 4 weeks of my life that I prefer to keep it tucked away for now. But I did take (at least) two things away with me, from it; and of course, I am going to now share them with you.

Firstly, I made a promise to myself, while down in Philly, that no matter what happened with the show, I was not going to remain another minute in THAT body.

To that end, I began my new life the day after returning from Philadelphia and it's been a bit roller coaster-ish, but I'm staying mostly on the right track. And with 20 pounds down, I must be doing something right.

I don't wish to disparage anyone else who has gone through the casting call/audition process, but I will say that I refuse to be 9 Seasons in and still trying out. Yep, I've been fat for all 13 seasons. No more.

So thank you for that, Biggest Loser. I am one less candidate for your show and yes, YOU did that.

Secondly, I realized that I still do want to help people live better - mind, body, and spirit. I've been doing this in one way or another for the better part of two decades now; but HERE is where it gets even better.

Alas...

I cannot share that second bit any more with you at the moment. Trust me, it'll be worth the wait.

Now, I'm not going to lie. KNOWING in Philly that I wasn't it, didn't all the way prepare me for the email I received the other night. Coming home and hopping on this weight loss journey didn't keep me from thinking that they MIGHT call, still...

But they didn't.

And at the end of the day?

I'm okay with that. Because I am doing what I promised myself. And I am working toward paying it forward. And I WILL be the next BIGGEST Loser!

Thanks again, Biggest Loser (et al.) for rejecting this over-weight, over-whelmed, under-motivated, fat girl. You have NO IDEA what you've done for me...yet.

Till next time!

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August 100 Miles Challenge Update: 

Sandi: 52.26 miles

Anna:  39.5 miles

Kathy: 67.71 miles

Steffie: 56.05 miles 

Bernie: 4.3 miles

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Remember, if you want me to track your miles for August, just shoot me a note and I will add you to the blog. If you are here already and I've got your numbers wrong, just shoot me...no, no, just let me know and I'll change it. I'm good with that. Cheers!

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Starting Weight: 306.4

Goal Weight: 150

Today's Weight: 286.6

Total Lost to Date: 19.8

Scale 'n' Toes 8.22.12

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I am a work in progress, always. Sometimes I stumble, but I always get back up. The hard part is knowing which direction to turn. If I go THAT way, I know I will fail. This time, I'm going THIS way. It's a new direction for me and I will NOT fail. Cheers!

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