34 freakin' days.
34 of the best (and worst) days of my life.
Today marks the end of week 5 in my weight loss journey and while I wasn't celebrating any successes, last night, I sure did make a mess of things.
Yesterday was one hot mess ALL day long but I could have pulled it out at the end...
And I didn't.
Instead, I gave in to a rare craving for the salty "goodness" that McDonald's provides by way of their double cheeseburger.
Only I ate two.
But I only had about 15 fries, she says, whining a teensy bit. Yah, because I stuffed them into the stupid (yep, I said stupid) cheeseburgers and gobbled them all up.
And this was all done late last night, after imbibing with a couple of my favorite tall drinks.
It wasn't the alcohol that fueled my desire for McD's.
It sure as heck wasn't the knowledge that I was going to wake up feeling like crap and hating the scale this morning.
I don't know what it was. Except that it's been 34 freakin' days and I had HAD it with healthy.
Do skinny folks go crazy sometimes and attack greasy food the way I did, last night?
I don't know. It's been a long time since I've been ANY kind of skinny.
I've gotta shake this off. I have to weigh in for my 5 weeks tomorrow and I cannot allow this to drag me under.
A momentary lapse in judgement.
I only know what has happened in the past when I've given in to such craziness. I will not allow that to happen this time. I have too much at stake and I've already come too far to turn back. I don't know if others OVER analyze poor food choices.
I do. Because if I didn't think about or understand the ramifications of my actions, I would most certainly be right back up over 300.
And THAT is NOT going to happen.
Here's to day 35 - I've got this. Moving forward, not sideways, and certainly not backwards.
Bring it, day 35, let's DO this!
Till next time!
Starting Weight: 306.4
Goal Weight: 150
Today's Weight: 288.2
I am a work in progress, always. Sometimes I stumble, but I always get back up. The hard part is knowing which direction to turn. If I go THAT way, I know I will fail. This time, I'm going THIS way. It's a new direction for me and I will NOT fail. Cheers!