34 freakin' days.
34 of the best (and worst) days of my life.
Seriously.
Today marks the end of week 5 in my weight loss journey and while I wasn't celebrating any successes, last night, I sure did make a mess of things.
Yesterday was one hot mess ALL day long but I could have pulled it out at the end...
And I didn't.
Instead, I gave in to a rare craving for the salty "goodness" that McDonald's provides by way of their double cheeseburger.
Only I ate two.
But I only had about 15 fries, she says, whining a teensy bit. Yah, because I stuffed them into the stupid (yep, I said stupid) cheeseburgers and gobbled them all up.
UGH.
And this was all done late last night, after imbibing with a couple of my favorite tall drinks.
It wasn't the alcohol that fueled my desire for McD's.
It sure as heck wasn't the knowledge that I was going to wake up feeling like crap and hating the scale this morning.
Poor scale.
I don't know what it was. Except that it's been 34 freakin' days and I had HAD it with healthy.
Do skinny folks go crazy sometimes and attack greasy food the way I did, last night?
I don't know. It's been a long time since I've been ANY kind of skinny.
Now what?
I've gotta shake this off. I have to weigh in for my 5 weeks tomorrow and I cannot allow this to drag me under.
A momentary lapse in judgement.
I only know what has happened in the past when I've given in to such craziness. I will not allow that to happen this time. I have too much at stake and I've already come too far to turn back. I don't know if others OVER analyze poor food choices.
I do. Because if I didn't think about or understand the ramifications of my actions, I would most certainly be right back up over 300.
And THAT is NOT going to happen.
Here's to day 35 - I've got this. Moving forward, not sideways, and certainly not backwards.
Bring it, day 35, let's DO this!
Till next time!
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August 100 Miles Challenge Update:
Sandi: 48.82 miles
Anna: 39.5 miles
Kathy: 65.71 miles
Steffie: 46.95 miles
Bernie: 4.3 miles
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Remember, if you want me to track your miles for August, just shoot me a note and I will add you to the blog. If you are here already and I've got your numbers wrong, just shoot me...no, no, just let me know and I'll change it. I'm good with that. Cheers!
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Starting Weight: 306.4
Goal Weight: 150
Today's Weight: 288.2
Total Lost to Date: 18.2
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I am a work in progress, always. Sometimes I stumble, but I always get back up. The hard part is knowing which direction to turn. If I go THAT way, I know I will fail. This time, I'm going THIS way. It's a new direction for me and I will NOT fail. Cheers!
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Girl... you know I can relate. Keep going. DO NOT GIVE UP!!! Plus I firmly believe that if we're doing this right, we can have off days once and awhile. Because this is life and life ain't perfect!
ReplyDeleteOh, I know you can relate, Anna! Thank you for the positive courage. And you are RIGHT. This life. It IS life. <3
ReplyDeleteOK, so you had a slip. Just pick yourself up, dust the ketchup from your hands and move on. You can do this. We all fall down from time to time. The key is to not give up. Don't allow yourself to feel guilty. You can't change it and if you dwell on it too long, you'll just want to dive right back into those cheeseburgers! Yesterday is over and today is brand new. I can't wait to see you in July and celebrate how great you have done!!!
DeleteKathy, you are such an inspiration, thank you :) Today IS the first day of the rest of my life :) Can't wait to see you too :) WE are AWEsome :)
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